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43. Be It Not Said (A Gilded Monument)
I see things most clearly when Im
napping, playful, misty-eyed, or imaginative.
If my listless body (all water and earth)
ever becomes engaged in thought,
that pair of air and fireone
given to flimsy illusions, the other one a raging passion
4 I mean my eye and heart, my perceptions and
feelingslock bodily in a fight to the death:
The pact between these faculties falls apart,
and the gap between them is wide.
How cautious and full of affection I was
when I first began this journey.
Until I return to that point, if I ever
do,
8 how heavily I move along.
Therefore my love can make allowances for
my slow progress in this project, for all my stumblings, for the drawn-out
indignities these poems inflict.
Granted such forgiveness, even in my condition
Im well-off. Answer to the riddle, key for unlocking things, point
where I might anchor and unload my burden
what are you made of?
12 Oh, how much more beautiful beauty seems at this distance
from it! And how much more beautiful than I can express!
Memorials of marble or gold, solid and beautiful
structures,
sweet love, do not recreate you in your
panoply of strength. No one should say they do.
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44. Up-Lockèd Treasure
Whenever readers see these texts, whose
content they may have overlooked or undervalued,
the limits of distanceand I do go
pretty far hereshould not stop me from coming across.
Wherever I may be, you still have both eyes;
and both sonnets and runes are still with you.
4 Thus it is that two sets of texts divide (and
conquer) your two eyes attention
with each one of both pairs, in symbiosis,
doing good turns for the other
by shoving every tidbit back and forth under
real bars like prisoners in adjacent cells helping each other out (the
nose between your eyes is one true bar)
just at the point when you frown on my flaws
(and add even more bars to your face).
8 When what I aim at (an end to my tedious advancement)
and expect from this stupid ass I ride onperversely
it speeds away, not toward you
can help the creature arrive at the sweet
locked-up treasure that is its goal
so that those millions of overshadowing
mysteries can wait on you
12 by means of true understanding, which has its own ornamental
beauty,
then princes will be forgotten long before
the world forgets this powerful verse,
your sharp weapon. (Youll need it
to divide things up truly.) Should the appetite for whats here be
any less keen than the knife itself?
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45. Famine and Feast When I sleep
(and while unknown people actually have you in their sights), my thought
and desire focus in a singular way on you in my dreams, for
then, in spite of the distance between us, I want to be where
you are. These same two faculties of minemy thought and desire,
4 of which my eyesight and heart are concrete emblemsconspire
daily to keep you out of my sight when
my eye is famished for a real look at you in the flesh so
that the idealized image of you that I have stored in my mind might stay
fresh, the image that grew when your
love was at its zenithcasting its longest shadow on the sundial, giving
the most it ever gave. 8 Reverie, then, including
nightime sleep, brings me to pose a rhetorical question to myself: Why
should I leave where I am and hurry toward you? If
I were there, you would not stay hourly preoccupied with melike some
sundial whose fixed shadow counts off every hour mark because
a person has only one shadow, which goes with him and falls on a succession
of companions in his circleand never on just one man. 12 A
rose looks beautiful, but in the imagination it becomes even more so.
Likewise, you and only you shall live in the
substantive satisfactions of such a vision as this one,
which is no longer famished, having been fed
to the point of contentment, at least for now.
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46. The Obelisk Restored
Now two points of dim brightness here in
the dark are drawn
a remote distance to gaze back toward where
you are,
shifting here and there rapidly as eyes
can, alternately vacant and alert as eyes will be.
4 My own heartor artmay sometimes
glance longingly at the freedom to come and gothe open space off
to the right of my leaf invites such freedom
or otherwise, melancholy from love, that
heartor artmight smother himself
with misguided hands, restricted as he is
to precincts entrusted to his responsibility
where he has been called by judicious considerations
to that reckoning he now undergoes.
8 Thus the measurable distance from your friendfrom
meis great;
until I return theres no need for
letters, certainly no need to mark the route with mileposts,
to make the prick of infrequent pleasures
less sharp,
but you alone can supply every lineation,
shading, and nuance
12 of that sweet insinuation that is alive in such a mitigating
happiness:
When I do return, an overgrown stone markerlike
an obelisk smeared with the mire of whorish time, a single monument to
the whole of my circular progress
will have been restored by the future to
its former grandeur.
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47. Of Feasts and Beasts
Later, you who illuminate these shadows
despite your absence and your hypothetical reality
may come to understand these chimeric subtextslater,
although my life and verse partook
of former times. When all these livelier
parts of myself are gone,
4 I still feel that you rest in my heart and therefore
my art; the concept of some understanding reader, at least, is
implicit in my work.
Thus my eye can feast on this small painted
likeness of my love and imagine the perpetuation of that image then
as well as now.
But you who regard my jewels as inconsequential
games
anticipating the time to come when you have
an odd encounter with
8 the beast that carries me here, worn out from
my troubles and haltings
O, what explanation will that beast reveal
then for me or himself or for what were about?
Now you see why times of feasting my eye
on your image are so serious and precious.
Try to create a real Adonis,
an artful representation, and the counterfeits
12 (as blighted blossoms to roses) may appear as deeply etched
and as bright.
When wasteful war overturns statues,
my love, you will still be beloved but will
already have suffered your demise, and even my monument to you have been
destroyed, although now you fill up your day and mine.
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48. Hungry Eyes: A Closet Never Pierced
What an entertaining display your reflected
image and this verse it inspires would make
anywhere! Remote from you
on a genial mission of love to you
4 a closet never penetrated by sharp eyes
and your envisioned banquet, my heart is
invited
by the lure of an ultimate solace that is
now my greatest grief;
then, hardly acknowledgedand inexorably
as the sun, a conceit for your own eye too, but for its brightness rather
than for its regular motionI
8 plod routinely, dully, dutifully onward, carrying
that weight of grief inside
in a situation where even extreme speed
can only seem slow,
because your record of infrequently comingalways
set for some distant date
could no more be imitated
12 than your aromatic essence. Both roses
and strugglesemblems for the two kinds
of texts heremight (and apparently do) in effect dislodge the stonework
in your fortress, digging
at your eyes (or other parts) there in your
private banquet room until those eyes respond with amazement, even tears,
at the cornucopic spectacle!
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49. Spurring Beauty
On
1-3 I comprise four elements, have four limbs, depend on two
eyes. Im married but live alone, with four (right now) in my family.
I can fly imaginatively toward an ideal condition if only your illumination
makes my thoughts nimble. My leaf, a seamless whole despite its
overt groups of four and two, also needs your light if it is to soar.
4 But the unnamed one to whom I direct my suit
denies my request for inspiring light.
Again my vision finds itself left alone,
dwelling with my own hearts (and arts) imaginings.
Dearest dear friendmy only preoccupation
when my love changed from the lesser thing
it used to be,
8 that wretch knew, as if by some instinct
that then I would ride, spurred, as if mounted
on the wind
astride ideal Beauty. Like valuable jewels
my spurs (and Beautys eyes) are spaced
apart on her cheeks, which the spurs redden.
All art, mounted upon Beauty,
12 hang just as precariouslyand threateningly. There
is not as much reckless play wrought
by the implements of war or by war itself
as in the name of art. Quick temper, heated passion, and the light of
inspiration will still be burning
tomorrow. Think again, and dont squelch
my inspiration. Dont kill our love. Dont shoot me down on
my highflying steed.
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50. Settled Gravity
When will still unborn readers see your
misty image shine bright?
The very thought pulls the locale of that
event
into the shady realm of death and oppressive
melancholy
4 but also conveys the truth that such ideal handsomeness
belongs to all eyes and contains the possibility of its own future reappearance
and that such physical beauty is complementary
to a handsome mans ideas about love.
Art being my recourse and medium (though
it becomes common property and gets stolen),
Ill use it to clarify some relationships
between looks and ideas. A man of settled gravity,
8 this writera rider astride artdid
not go in for speed: Being carried away from you,
a Pegasus-mounted poet, Ill never
really even experience movement
nor be in charge of its direction. A few
jewels in the fancy necklace,
and you are painted anew in Grecian garments
12 when the winds of future summers bring forth hidden buds,
discreetly nascent images
still-living mementos of you,
loves spirit, but always monotonous,
never as vivid or as sharply pointed as real men are.
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51. This Sad Interim
I ask how I might view things happily.
But, ah, the idea kills me that I am not
seen as
a whole recurrenceand wont be
until my lifes work as a writer is, with Sonnets and Runes reconciled.
4 This matter aside, Im posting a peripheral
poemthis particular line sits in a high righthand position on the
folio leaf where it enjoys breathing room
so that, since this title reveals both your
ever-present image and my professed love for you,
I havent really buried you in some
chest.
Anticipating future wholeness, I do conceal
myself in this hidden poem:
8 No bloody spur digging into a flank can move
this hymn along,
so it seems that the horse that bears me
can never keep up with the pace of my passion.
Thats how the time passes here, where
you are my whole heart, my treasure.
As to spring and harvest time, conventional
analogies a poet might choose,
12 their virtue lies only in their showinesswhich is
antithetical to the privacy of this art.
From death, meaninglessness, and all forgotten
struggles in human history
let this sad verse interlude distance us
as an ocean would. (Like an infinite gathering of tears, the ocean is
a more expansive conceit for my love than any seasonal figure.)
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52. A Geography of the Heart
For having seen you in real life,
two eyes can leap long distances when you
are not here, so that we are joined anyway:
those fast messengers having brought back
from you
4 an inquiring body of thoughts, all heart-dwellers,
you are still with me, even though absent,
except where you arent (though I feel
your presence there)
in the desert of my rational self-evaluation.
8 That sometimes-angry recognition pierces the
hide of my hidden heart,
then, with a dagger-like desire for perfection,
wholeness, and affection;
or, to put it differently, like clothing
hiding a natural wardrobe,
the one that I am, a poor indicator of the
hidden beauty you are, shows
12 that your perfections exist untouched and languish unadmired
in darkness.
If you step forth, praise for you will still
find a place in the world,
of which one part is a virgin beach for
couples newly joined, dazzling enough to cause paired eyes to squint.
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53. Sweet Roses, Come
My flawed and distant friend, roses
(emblems of your recurring beauty) even in the dead of night are beautiful
just the right mix of earth and water,
even just now returning assuredly
4 and the precepts that the roses teach influence me
to decide
that now you can move my thoughts no farther
inside the tender enclosure of my breast
toward raising this hand of mine against
myself
8 (an action that my body responds to with a groan).
Here no droopy nag, no skinbag, shall neigh
in his heated race
to make some special moment especially fine.
As your endowment becomes plainer, those
roses I mentioned
12 expire all alone. Sweet roses, dont do that:
So people of every coming age can see,
show up daily to decorate the hills, displaying
thorny stems that look like a runic W.
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54. Excuse My Jade: A New Unfolding
Life over, death keeps sightless eyes closed.
Even awake, I stay fatigued, but
I have to keep working to entertain the
ages with groanings
about their thriving condition, ticking
them off here in meter to myself,
4 something for eyes, something for hearts.
Thus I am still with my readers of all times,
and they with me,
in a company that you, my friend, can join
or leave at will
to attend to valid concerns of your own,
8 matters that hurt me to think about more than
spurs in my side would. Having declared myself his ally,
only love, then, for loves sake, will
justify my weary pace and side excursions
by new revelations of his own hidden splendor,
of pride in my work,
and of you, my friendin every blessed
shape known to man.
12 The sweetest lingering essence comes from the fine deaths
of those
who exhaust every possibility in the world
until the very end,
when Love returns, toward the end of making
the scene a happier one.
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55. Call It Winter
Until I see you, all days look like
nights to me,
the recipient of nothings, in tiny increments;
this fact tallied, I am at that point no
longer happy. Equally
4 ecstatic, my eyes have nothing to look at by day
except their own lenses
or else, in sleep, can only picture you
in my imagination,
and Im afraid Ill find you taken
away there too.
You have every legal right to leave poor
me
8 (for the mournful thought of your absence reminds
me of this too).
Since Will left you, intentionally but regretfully,
youve been blessed with a range of
worthiness that inspires a poet,
partaking of every outward grace.
12 Thus, given your nature and absence, my young friend, as
beautiful and lovely
as Ive said, until the Judgment when
you come back in the flesh (like Christ or spring)
to establish absolute standards of worthiness,
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56. A Prize So Dear
Now, the nights that are brightened when
I see you in dreams
being only crying sessions advertising our
problems and those that days and nights bring,
I reject my dreams, order my tears back
where they came from, and instantly grow sad,
4 after which my hearts prerogative, the deep
feeling shown in my dreams and tears,
reawakens it to a beloved, appealing sight
in fact, shows itself thievishly anxious
for that dear prize.
Later, I cant explain why anyone would
love;
8 only grief is ahead of me, and my happiness is past.
Ill run toward you and let sorrow
or joy go whatever way it will;
Ill feel victory when Im yours,
and, when Im still nobodys, Ill hope
that your affections stay singularly uncommitted.
In the interest of constancy,
12 when everything Im talking about fades away, your
reality is still crystallizing in verse.
You go on living in this poem and dwell
in lovers eyes
and in the summers of bosom friends and
loversand are thus thrice welcomed but still more wished for, the
more cherished, a prize even rarer than before.
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57. The Map of Days Outworn
Being your slave, what choice do I have
here but to attend to
the thing forbidden by heaven that first
enslaved me.
If there is nothing new in the world, just
what there is,
4 like waves moving toward the pebbled shore,
do you want your image to go on filling
(everybody is controlled by sinful egotism)
my eye
until my love reaches the stage I have already
reached
8 as one who has seen ruthless time claw away
at
imperishable wit and bold perception?
Not being stone, earth, or infinite sea,
and bored with all these, the elemental
conceits of my verse, I cry out for restful death!
Ah, why should a man live with such infection,
12 making his cheeks look like wrinkled maps from worn-out days,
especially if such components are to become
the parts of you that are revealed to the world?
Its not your fault if you look blemished
here in these poems.
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58. A Beggar Born
Whenever you may be in the right mood
Id like to direct the activity of
your mind during leisureby using my imagination and wit,
as has happened formerly
. How our
minds are mesmerized!
4 With such pastimes our minutes rush toward oblivion,
their destiny;
my heavy eyelids hurry toward sleepless
night;
and all my soul, every part of me,
is overburdened and crushed by the hurtful
hand of time
8 the splendid price we pay for living long enough
to put the past behind us.
Nothing more nor less than sad mortality
overcomes our faculties
as two (a pair of eyes, you and I) see a
poor, bereft beggar born here in these lines
to grace with his presence an indecorous
secular scene
12 where beauty lived and died in verse. Act the way flowers
always have,
needing nothing that affectionate human
concern can supply.
It is always natural for beauty to be the
target of maliciousness.
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59. Lofty Towers Downrazed
I have no precious time at all to waste
or to spend craving a first-hand account of
how you pass the hours in your day,
hours in which I work to be inventive but
produce only flawed offspring,
4 each one interchangeable with the one just before
it.
Do you want me to go sleepless
to a point where my situation is hopeless?
When time has drained a bodys blood
and filled the head,
8 when sometimes I see ambitious erections razed,
extravagant projects undermined,
how, against such madness, can a plausible
case be made jointly (in these coeval texts) by beauty
and by this poor, inconsequential offspring,
dressed to look gay
so that his faulty nature is rationalized
and makes headway?
12 Before such bastard displays of outward good looks were created,
every foolish voice publicized yours, badly:
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60. Commend a Crow
Having no services to perform until you
ask for them (or until the new pages of my work are gathered),
being your slave, bound to await
your pleasure and serve you in your pastimes
like an adult burdened with childish responsibilities
4 in a sequence of choresin such a situation,
all of these texts (each one presumptuous, each prefacing those that follow)
vie for attention (I struggle with them even as you will)
while images of you (as I try to envision
you) mock my eye,
since your image is so rooted, so deeply
engraved in my heart (and since my vision is an internal one),
all lines and wrinkles. When finally this
prefatory stage in the history of my heart and art;
8 and timeless brass; and effrontery
(perpetually controlled by human anger
of a sort whose actions are no more effectual
than those of flowers);
and purest faith (repudiated in disillusionment,
as fragile as lace itself); and my own hearts
company
12 when finally all of these are past and gone, there still
has dared to perch on a living brow
and utter stark truthin a way that
even enemies approve of
an upstart crow that flies in
the sweetest air of heaven.
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61. Windy Puffery
I dont dare blame the world. Endlessly,
Oh, let me suffer here at the rocky stream
of your bidding,
OhI who could look backward and recollect
4 a glorious birth once, bathed in the sea of light!
Is it your spirit that you radiate? (Do you
send me away? Are you dying?)
I think there is no face so gracious as yours,
since mine
has traveled on into the damp, precipitous
darkness of advancing age
8 where I now observe huge losses to that hungry
ocean.
Oh, how can I be confident that summers
sweet breath will last?
And, in a shameful instance of pointless decoration,
why should one represent summers puffed
cheeks
12 trying to stir the golden braids of the dead,
thus honoring lifeless appearances with purely
superficial attention?
Trying to show your consummate goodness, one
may assent to such things and thus speak slanderously by not telling the
whole truth. One tries but fails to show your vitality. You are such a paragon
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62. I Watch the Clock
While I watch the clock waiting for you,
my king,
not free myself, the enforced absence of
your generous, wide-ranging self
that has now lasted for more than 16 months
4 crawls toward a consummation that will crown
it
here far away from where you are. Thus I
await the intervention into my life and work
of a paragon of form and substance
while the many beauties that that kingly
figure now commands
8 show military superiority at the seashore of
his kingdom
over the torturous siege of daily batterings
and over unceremonious loss of maidenly
virtue.
Andthe power of weapons, armor, or
prisons having lost viability against himany chance that that vital
complexion is to be seen
12 in the realm of sepulchers would seem to be cut off, thwarting
deaths prerogative.
Another upshot of your triumph, my king,
is that poets intent on giving you your due (or on giving you, my readers,
whatever you think you see here)
have their statuses enhanced, since posterity
will love them (or maybe think them crazy).
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63. A Second Life on Second Head
Poet, neither consider bitter absence from
a loved one depressing
nor regard patience as weakness. To help
me stay patient and stop both errors of thought,
let me see your face, my muse! Some old
book or other
4 would dramatize malignant figures struggling
to overcome the writers herodark crescents trying to shade
out the sun, invading to establish their beachheads
revealing by contrast my weak skill and
wasted time
and making my own writing project seem trivial
to me.
Are complete human oblivion
8 and a vanished terra firma to be outcomes of
the oceans triumph?
In a world where impregnable rocks succumb
and pure perfection is wrongfully put down,
why should second rate art seek deviously
12 to live a second, parasitic lifelike an eclipse on
the face of the sun.
One may add other points to confuse this
poem of praise further, especially by voicing criticisms to help tear
it down;
for viciousness, like a cancer, has a naturaloften
covertaffinity for sweet buds.
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64. Loss and Store: The Treasure of His
Spring
After you told your servant goodbye
I dont accuse you of inflicting hurt
since thenmy initial reaction to the
loss was set down in writing;
4 now bountiful time, which always gives us the
present, confuses
the extent and duration of those of my thoughts
that would try to possess you
as I surpass all others, even the richest,
storing up my Rosemy Rowsthe
treasure of springtime,
8 increasing a reserve in which loss and gain
are equally mixed.
No strong storehouse gates escape times
decay,
for hinges break and the gates swag; drooping
likewise wilts
roses (such as those I try to store here).
From imperfect adumbrations, then, perceive that the poets Rose
is perfectly real and truly beautiful.
12 Until now, the locks of the dead would have formed just
another hair-knot nosegay;
by looking past such a trinket now, the
eye has revealed
and you, my friend, representa pure
white rose in its prime, presented to you, my reader.
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65. Such Interchange of State
I should never be jealous nor insecure:
Wherever you choose to be, our bond is so
strong
that I could stand to hear anything this old
world might say.
4 Time (and also the meter here) cuts through the
undue emphasis placed on youth.
Oh, be assured that our love, though strong,
is strongest
when I face my aging self squarely in the
mirror.
Right now I fortify myself against such a
time
8 when I witness the reversed condition that time
brings with age (and also when I contemplate the perversely interlocked
condition of these texts).
Oh, what a terrible thought! Where loss
and cosmetics (or artful shrewdness, in the
case of these texts) combine to authorize speechlessness,
why should ones voice go on? Now that
nature lacks resources, is stript bare,
12 one sees in that voice times like those of oldan age
worth revering.
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66. This Composèd Wonder
Wherever you are, whatever youre
doing, imagine
that you yourself might be fortunate enough
to spend your time
with this erected miracle that you are engendering
and helping to frame
4 and imagine the parallel trenches that doing
so would dig in beautys brow!
This work is my passion; it keeps my eye
active and alert,
assailed though it is by old age and the
parchment skin surrounding it,
on guard against the cruel cuts of age
8 and senility. Itself overcome and left to fade
away,
shall this best jewel in times chest
lie hidden,
and Dr. Foolishnessperforming a tedious
procedure skillfully
fail because the patient bleeds to death?
Two jewels (like testicles, one more extroverted than the other) blush
through throbbing veins:
12 the apparent one, all obvious show, displaying what it
is,
and the surmised one a thing that people
reconstruct in imagination (using your prowess as a measure) as
either totally unassailable or, when besieged,
triumphant. (More largely, your hidden jewel shows itself in this its
hefty discharge.)
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67. What Ruin Hath Taught
Now, sit and mope like a dejected servant,
thinking of nothing,
of couples and couplingof zero or
2, of what you will. Its up to you, Will,
whether we two get pieced together, and
where. (Reader, its up to you to recompose the Runes.) Better that
the eye
4 feast on true natural rarities,
aspects of my own true love, who keeps me
awake nightsand whom I address here.
(I see prideful self love in another
light.)
So that my love shall never dart out of
memory, leaving a hurt,
8 this ruinous state has taught me to ruminate
as I do here
about what strong hand can hold back ruins
quick passage (or Wills movement in meter)
or can block simple fact, really not simple
at all.
For nature has no treasury now but truths
12 and makes no summer from anybody elses greenery.
Then, even while maintaining the look of
support for me, wrong-thinking boors are thinking,
Surely, Will, this tribute of yours
cannot be yours. Given its form and character, its not even a tribute.
And surely this cant be another tribute to Southy,
the Earl of Southampton.”
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68. Weeds for Captain Ill
Everywhere except where you are (a happy
exception!) you make men
forgive you for wrongs that they imagine
and dwell on or that you really inflicted.
The process is as inevitably aswherever
the earth turns or rebellions happen
4 times mowing everything and everybody
down, each in turn, so that nothing lasts.
For me to keep on in the role of your attentive
watchman,
given your vanity and self-centeredness,
would be sinful.
My sweet love is beautiful; however, my
lover is life
8 that time will come and take. My love not being
here,
who can deny the hold of his beauty or reject
the ruin it brings? And who can stop my spoiling his appearance
in these lines with odd adornments?
Thus, I in the role of Captain Good, standing
by the bier of Captain Ill,
proud of many gainsmy own, my friendsand
still flourishing because of both,
12 decide to adorn his beauty in figurative garments
never worn by anyone dead before:
To your fair rose, lets add the rank
smell of weeds, adorning you thus in funeral garb
and lacing you and death up in it, thereby
expanding admiration infinitely for us both. (Tying weeds onto your flow-er
would make it bigger for all eternity.)
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69. These Black Lines
Love is such an utter and faithful fool that
at your service I,
Will, can only wait, though such waiting is
hell.
Oh, certainly I am the medieval clown, perpetuating
this old game,
4 and yet my verse shall stand in time to come.
I keep my eye on you, but you open your eyes
elsewhere;
its both of us together that I exalt,
of my own accord.
In these black lines the both of us shall
be seen.
8 This thought, which seems as involuntary as death,
spells my fate and leaves me no choice,
alas, none. Unless this unique project is
to develop momentum and gain power over readers
I feel like quitting, for Im tired of
all these verses.
Oh, nature treasures this miraculous man (and
his hymns) to show what wealth she had,
12 and she stores him as a chart and guide for future times.
Now why, my friend, do the poets hints
in verse not match your fine reality?
If some suspect youre sick or bador
suspect some illicit relationship between usa knotty poem has masked
whatever reality you display.
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70. What Beauty Was of Yore
Whatever you do, one man thinks no ill of
you;
your choices of pursuits, bad or good, are
to him beyond reproach.
Worse writers have addressed their verse
subjects with praise and admiration,
4 praising your worthiness despite its merciless
arm
which is far away from me, but all too intimate
with others
painting this great era with the beauty
of your days.
Those days shall live, the man in their
midst still fresh,
8 but now the age cries to have what it also fears
to lose.
That man, my love, indelibly inscribed,
may still shine bright.
Right up until my death, Ill beleave
my book with this unique love that once existed
in days long past, before these very bad
recent ones,
12 to show up spurious art with real beauty from another time.
The foolish partfrom my angleis
that you thus become familiar;
then you (rather than I) may command the
hearts of many subjects.
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71. Whose Epitaph to Make?
When I am dead, do not go on and on mourning
for me.
Oh, you are the last person in the world
to be asked to eulogize me.
You may live to see that season when I die,
4 but hold your peace and stay composed when that
cruel end comes.
These ideas about you nourish my mind and
keep me living;
but why is my verse so lacking in new substance?
Your reflection here will (at least) show
you how beautiful you once were,
8 so often have I invoked you as my inspiration,
calling upon you alone for support.
Oh, how faint (but also how playful) I feel
when I write about you!
If it happens that I outlive you and write
your epitaph, instead of the other way around,
12 I will simply mention your nonexistence. While married
to my muse (you have been my inspiration)
I never felt that you needed the artifice
of eulogy or embellishment.
What is your name? Which name, yours or
mine, will the earlier epitaph feature? Answers to such questions would
say it all. Who or what could say more?
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72. Thy Dial
At some time later you shall hear my gloomy
funeral bell.
The question is, what merits did I have for
you to love?
In a stark season, the trees leaflessor
nearly so
4 outside, the Ultimate Custodian shall take me
away,
my life finished as quickly as spring showers
run into the earth.
But steady, with no forward leaps, still go
the beats in this metrical
timepiece that I am busy crafting for you:
How the precious passing minutes of your evanescentperhaps profligatelife
8 have found the beauty of immortality in my verses.
(If Ive helped waste your time here, at least Ive done so pleasantly.)
Only in my verses has your gentle grace been
captured,
for they acknowledge the superior soul that
your name is attached to. (Do I mean yours or mine?)
To take another angle, imagine that you survive
after Im rotten in the earth
12 and that you can then read whats here without guilt
by association, observing no erring strokes in the portrait;
in that light, lets add no extra color
to your fair features as I portray them here
except the rich tribute that accrues when
I say that you alone are just yourself.
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73. Vacant Leaves
Notify the world that I have departed;
after my death, dear love, completely forget
about me,
a shivering leaf on limbs enraged by winter.
4 I have a personal interest in this approach,
as do you, and your contentment justifies
my struggle.
Why do I not look elsewhere, and quit all
this, as most people today would?
The empty pages (and trite conceits about
fall) will bear the imprint of your mind anyway,
8 because every other writer, however inept, follows
my lead;
but now my own graceful verse has deteriorated
and in the very act of praising your mind.
Exerting all his strength,
death cannot take your memory from this text.
12 The dedicated words that writers use,
and the ideas I have discovered have not measured
up to you, I found.
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74. Bare Runèd Quires
For me to leave this evil world and live
with vilest worms
before you dothat could accomplish
no good purpose and would leave an unworthy legacy:
empty runic songsheets where formerly sweet
birds (and your Sweet Bard S.) sang into the dark,
4 remnants that will stick with you as a memorial
the way a miser is inseparable from his
wealth.
Two newfound techniques, two compounds unique
to this text (my erudite specialty), you
may sample;
8 and, at your discretion, you may disperse the
poems that result.
Further, my ineffective inspiration makes
room for another poet or recomposer:
this duplicity, this double praise of you,
makes me tongue-tied.
Though lodged in my mind and heart, each
part here will be forgotten
12 by the fair subject whom the parts address. Every section
being blessed (and thus lessened)
by the inadequate offerings of a greatly
indebted poet,
which sonnet or rune can illustrate the
vitality of someone like you?
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75. Lean Penury
No, if and when you read this line, dont
remind yourself
(unless you are prepared to rationalize
our mutability)
that in me you see the evening of such a
day
4 as the one in which you review this; you look
over it
now as one who enjoys the prime of life,
and then....
Why do I still create over and over, all
of one piece,
these wrinkles, mirror images
that will appear under the close scrutiny
8 of your eyes, beautiful enough to have taught
the dumb to sing like angels?
I admit, sweet love, the lovely case you
make;
only because your worth is as wide as the
ocean (and not from my skill)
will your name have immortal life from now
on.
12 Your mind and reputation are as beautiful as your complexion,
and therefore it appears that I have dozed
in this account of you. (Certainly I sometimes sleep dreaming of you.)
What poverty, what indigence lives in this
reporters pen!
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76. A Noted Weed of Mouthèd
Graves
My hand, that wrote it (for I love
you so
for doing more for me than I deserve, enriching
my barren life)
as, after the sun sets in the west,
4 that very part of me was dedicated to you.
Unsure whether (but fearful that) this grasping
era will pilfer its treasure
and stronghold, witty creativity in the
well-known cloak
of mournful sepulchers (like a knotty weed
beside a grave) will give you attention and perpetuate your memory,
8 but also will produce leaden ignorance and ignored
tributes. High flying and escape
call for efforts from a worthier pen.
But the little sail, like the showiest,
propels,
though I, once departed to the far corners
of the world, must die
12 seeking your worth, a thing past the limits of my praise
that only you yourself, living, could show
adequately.
That merit gives me and my writings a significant
glory.
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77. How Far a Modern Quill Comes Short
In your sympathetic contemplations I
want you to forget me as a living entity
and instead to festoon with praise my deceased
self,
which is inexorably doomed by the natural
order of things to disappear in darkness:
4 Thereby the earth might get only whats
coming to him, the physical part of me.
Now, granting that to be with you would
be bestand trying as I do here to meter out my best verses for you
to read privately
every word Ive spoken about separation,
each unsigned word I struggle to write, almost destroys me while also,
perhaps, threatening to degrade my reputation as writer.
By devious calculations that flit like shadows
on your sundial you may detect
8 half-finished quillwork here added to this circling,
flighty erudition. (Doing this very text, Im just halfway through
this project.)
Despite that part of you that this poet
uses his imagination to conjure up,
given that my pert yawp and mode of navigation
(remember, Im afoot) are far inferior to those the wide
earth has,
he will by nature yield me only an ordinary
death and eventual oblivion,
12 and thus he has compelled me as an artist to explore in
original ways
the limits of contemporary composition before
having it inevitably fall short of the mark.
Only he who writes about you can measure
(if anyone can) that gap.
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78. Some Fresher Stamp
If thinking about me sometime should make
you grieve,
then foresight and an authors honesty,
both usually in short supply, would Willingly show you
a restful death, yours or minea more
soothing condition in either case than real life.
4 My spirit is yours, the better part of me
thus improved to show the world these playful
predilections
in the process of revealing their origins
and mode of development.
Time is a progress to eternity in which
much is taken away;
8 and, given the presence of grace, it is a double
nobility
that time robs you of before repaying you,
finally, with grace:
On your wide expanse there appears, at Wills
command,
even after you seem to men to be dead and
buried,
12 some newer sign of that stage when you outdid time by living,
asserting your virtues. The worth that thrives
in you
the fact that you are what you areadds
dignity to history, the story of time.
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79. Staying Afloat
O, I say, when you scrutinize this verse,
O, your true love will be least likely to
seem false:
For here you see a glowing fire of the sort
4 that assures you that you have only lost the
ashes of what has already burned.
Sometime when you are savoring your reflection
in this mirror,
O, know, sweet love, that everything here
is about you.
Notice what this memorial cannot record,
8 yet be very proud of what it does anthologize:
This text attributes virtue to you that
indeed used to be yours.
Just the least support from you will keep
me afloat;
my gentle verse shall be your memorial
12 and shall still be that, love, even after people unnamed
have figured out
all of this and have detected our friendship.
You left me muzzled for the sin of loving you;
but all that this tribute (or any reader
or sleuth) has to do is copy your attributes.
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80. These Waste Blacks, Your Soundless Deep
When it may happen that my body is mingled
with earth,
in order that you, for loves sake, speak
well of me, an imperfect man
who lies on the ashes of his youth
4 food for worms, my body being dead
and eventually picked clean, a skeleton to
look at,
and even then eloquent with the theme of you,
and love
enter and embrace this ink-black region and
you shall discover
8 whom you inspire and buoy up:
Your actions are the source of the beauty
he contributes
(as he rides on your silent, fathomless ocean)
to unborn readers (who may miss things, or
overexplicate).
12 What strained touches rhetoric can add!
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81. Such A Counterpart
After my death, do not even say my pitiful
name;
let it be buried where my body is
on the deathbed where it must die.
4 The reluctant product of a wretchs surgery
that neither enjoys nor seeks any pleasure,
the best I can write comes out as old words
newly dressed,
children delivered by section from your
brain, and then attended to.
8 In the writings of another, merely by controlling
the style, you
inspire it with your handsome face, shaping
it with your lips; that writer has the means of getting
separate raw material. A creature wracked,
I am a worthless remedy, no booty, a molding chamber that only tortures.
Anyway, assuming that unknown future voices
praise your life so that its openly recast,
12 you, truly fair, will have been sympathetically portrayed.
As the long-gone writer, now dead, I do
not impair beauty by staying mute,
and some future, counterpart voice shall
spread the fame of my friends witor beautys, or maybe
even his own.
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82. He of Tall Building
When I die, just let your love for me die
so that it no longer lives to shame either
of us,
consumed with the physical life that once
nourished it,
4 a thing too worthless for you to think about
further.
Hold onto what you have at that point, or
you will lose it,
reinvesting what you once spent on our love
in an effort to renew an acquaintance with
your intellect.
8 Thereafter the arts will be visited and enriched
by your most pleasant attributes
no thanks to yourself, but to what thrives
eternally under the influence of your spirit,
an ambitious builder, a man of strong pride
even after all the talkers die off, and
in fact until the end of time,
12 with the straightforward words of your always-forthright
friend
(being unlike those of others who offer
you memorial tributes that are as empty as tombs)
having qualities of style that are, and
will be, universally admired.
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83. That Which I Bring Forth
Thoughtful people should pay no attention
to your lament (which is like that of a disappointed father);
for it is I who bear the shame of what I
give birth to!
You understand this, and it strengthens
your passion:
4 The value of your love is self contained (and
not in its object); the value of what I produce is in its substance.
Thus day after day, like a laboring wife,
I both languish and experience superabundance.
For, just as the sun (or a son) is both
new and routine each day,
so these duties appear, my offspring poems,
whenever you notice them.
8 But you are the source of my productivity, and
make advances;
then dont credit my art for what it
says.
Thus if my art shall thrive, and I be put
aside,
you still shall livemy pen has such
effectiveness and wifely virtue
12 and the crude representation of these efforts (and of your
eyes) also remains imperfect; in actuality and in normal operation,
either of your beautiful eyes has more life
in it than what I have created!
As I have said, you are directly
responsible for fathering this cursed adjunct to your bounteous beauty.
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84. Both Your Poets
My friend, go ahead and let me and my verses
ridicule you after I am gone,
and rightly so, because you love worthless things,
and love those writings that you must be
separated from before long
4 I mean these poems, which actually remain with
you after I leave.
Either feasting on everything or totally
gone,
thus my love repeats itself, still counting
what is already numbered, narrating an old story.
You will profit (and your book will be as
much enriched from it
8 as from erudition) from my crude ignorance,
since what my ignorant writing owes you,
you yourself supply to compensate.
The worst part was this: My love for you
caused deterioration
of the powers of speech.
12 Where cheeks need life-giving energy, you provide it. Rhetoric
being corrupted,
then, the writer of the Sonnets and of
these Runes can, as tribute, only practice
playing the foolish sycophantmaking
these poems of praise worse!
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